Goodbye [f]unemployment and hellloooo once again to the working world!
I am very excited and thankful to say that after many months of being jobless, God not only blessed me one job opportunity, but TWO – a part time position with Beloved International as their Operations Master [working title!] and a full time position with Spark Program as their Redwood City Program Manager. Both of them are amazing non-profits that work with children and both of them are working hard to make a difference in the community!
It’s been awhile since I’ve been working full-time, whether that’s at a job or even with my busy college schedule, and I’m a little nervous but also extremely pumped to start doing so many things again. Granted, it’s going to be quite the transition though especially since my mornings will now start at 6AM and not 9AM…..and I will now have to share my gym space with the rush of other people ending their work day. Boo. But all good things must come to an end so that new good things can begin 🙂
So on my very last day of freedom before I get back into the work force, I’ve been reflecting on what it’s been like these past few months, what I’ve learned, and what I’m excited for in this next chapter of life. It’s pretty nuts to see how abundantly God provides in His perfect timing and how he does not waste a single thing – not even unemployment!
God’s Sovereign Timing
God really really knows exactly what I need and exactly when I need it. I mean, I was looking hard core for 5 straight months and nothing! But now that I have a job and other things in my life that are happening at the same time, I see why the Lord withheld work from me until now and dang, am I grateful. Being unemployed gave me time to spend with Matthew before he left for military training and allowed my schedule to be more flexible in being able to talk to him during his variable training. Being unemployed allowed me to consider finally moving home, be closer to family, and ultimately look for [and find] a job up here in NorCal. And now, just as Matthew is about to leave for Ranger School where we will have about 2-3 months of complete silence, I am able to focus on these new job(s) and have something to distract me from the lonely reality of life haha. Totally kidding but also a little serious. Hang out with me, guys.
I gotta admit that there were times that I grew very discontent with the season I life I had been given, and at times even discontent just from trying to understand why I was discontent! But it is so reassuring to know that the Lord’s plan are infinitely better than my own and that He knows why He kept me in that period of unemployment.
God’s Abundant Provision
The Lord owes me nothing, not even a job, but the fact that he would provide two amazing jobs is beyond me. God could have easily given me an a job that had nothing to do with my career and that would have been sufficient, but instead he abundantly provided me with jobs that are both with non profit organizations working to resolve issues in our community that I am deeply passionate about. Even my position within each of these non profits is exactly the type of work I want to. Again – God’s very abundant provision!!
In a society that tells you your success in finding a job is based on how hard you work or how good your resume looks, I thought that the more presentable my resume was and the more jobs I applied to, the more likely I would find a legit job. But I literally sent like the exact same resume to I think over 50 companies and didn’t hear back from any of them except Spark. What was the difference? I believe that it was the Lord. I believe that He kept those other 49 companies silent so that His plan to have me at Spark would unfold and ultimately, all the glory would go to Him because it belongs to Him.
There is More to Life Than a Job. Or Whatever It Is That You’re Looking For.
I can say this confidently because I remember clearly what I felt when I was still looking for a job and know how I feel now that I have secured a job. I thought that once I found a job, I’d feel more secure, more confident, more content. But as I’m approaching work, I still have a lot of fears, uncertainties, financial concerns…you name it. Honestly, not that much has changed because my purpose in life – to make Christ known and to reach the lost – has not changed one bit. The way it looks or the environment may be different but God remains the same and his calling for us as believers remains the same.
It’s not just a job though. God has reminded me time and time again that only his love is able satisfy completely and only when we are living our lives according to the calling He has given to us will we really feel complete. I learned that through relationships, through school, and even through accepting my own body image. There is much more to my life and your life than that next thing you’re looking for, I promise 🙂
There is Joy in Every Season
Regardless of the circumstances that the Lord gives to you – whether it’s joy or hardship or uncertainty – there is great, great joy to be found in the Lord simply because He is the Lord. Just like how people can always magically find the bad in every circumstance, when we have Christ, we are able to find the joy and the hope in every thing because we know that ultimately, it’s not about us but it is about Him.
About 8 years ago, my small group leader made me memorize a Psalm and to this day, the Lord continues to make clear to me in my life everything that David, the Psalmist says.
O LORD, you have search me and known me!
You know when I sit down and when I rise up; you discern my thoughts from afar.
You search out my path and my lying down and are acquainted with all my ways.
Even before a word is on my tongue, behold, O LORD, you know it completely.
You hem me in, behind and before, and lay your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high, I cannot attain it.
Where shall I go from your Spirit? Or where shall I flee from your presence?
If I ascend to heaven, you are there! If I make my bed in Sheol, you are there!
If I take the wings of the morning and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea,
even there your hand will guide me and your right hand shall hold me.
If I say, “Surely the darkness shall cover me, and the light about me be night,”
even the darkness is not dark to you; the night is bright as the day for darkness is as light with you.
For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it full well.
My frame was not hidden from you when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth.
You eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them
the days that were formed for me when as yet there was none of them.
– Psalm 139:1-16
He knows me. He knows my thoughts. He knows His plans for me. What a comforting and beautiful truth no matter if I’m employed, unemployed, healthy, sick, rich, poor, anything!
This was a little longer than I expected…haha but I guess this was really more for me to process more than anything. Pray for me that I wouldn’t make a complete fool out of myself tomorrow and that I can continue to exemplify Christ in my workplace!